4M- Week 1

The past week has been a really challenging week mentally and physically. Work has been spiralling out of control and we took a financial hit which threw everything at home out of balance. These are the issues that really hinder my weigthloss and more importantly, raise my blood pressure. I really need to look into some stress management exercises. One thing I did not realize is how stress affects production of breastmilk. When I am upset, the milk does come out: it hinders let down. This highlights the importance of mental health in my overall well being. I cannot ignore it and it has to be addressed. Pounding on the pavement helps a little...lol.

Andrea's wedding was this is weekend and I had so much fun. The bride looked so amazing and she braved that heat in her fabulous blinged out gown. I was really looking forward to this wedding and the fact that it was exactly 4 months from the day I had Ishe made it more of a milestone. I really wanted to look good and I knew for a while that I was wearing the dress I wore to Shorai's wedding and I wanted a really drastic before and after picture and I got one...yay me. The change was so noticeable I actually posted it on the FIT group on Facebook.

Even though I am sure the scale does not support me, I really enjoyed receiving the compliments and now I am looking forward to the actual 9 month check-in. I would really like an even better before/after/after picture...

I also managed to stay away from the scale as promised. I hope I can see progress without the scale. I am sure if I stay active I will be fine. I managed to complete the challenge to get 18K Nike fuel points, I really had to sweat to get that done because of the few days I skipped in the middle. But I did it. I am going to wait until August 1st to start a new goal. I am thinking increasing pace???? We will see.

In Summary

Weight: n/a
Distance: 19.84 miles

#Active days: 6

3M- Week 5 (W)

Last week has really been about damage control and it is amazing how easily I derailed myself. It is clear that my short term goal is out of reach but I still have to take it one day at a time. My physical appearance is not changing at all and that is really discouraging. I have to keep reminding myself that it is 9 months on, 9 months off but my need to instant gratification really takes over. I was able to shed those extra pounds I gained over the holiday and get back in the workout routine.

I have not been able to stay off the scale like I said I would. I just wanted to make sure that I was making progress. Now that I know I am, my next weigh in will be on IJ's birthday, 08/12/2013.

In Summary,

Weight: 216.8lbs

Distance: 16.95 miles
#Active days: 5

3M- Week 4 (W)

This last weekend was a serious derailment of my fitness goals; we went to the lake for the holiday weekend and between the barbeque and poolside drinks, I completely obliterated the maximum number of calories to be consumed. I completely over-indulged and I am already regretting it.

Other than the over-eating, I found myself in a group of women who were so much smaller than me, made me feel like I had not made any progress at all in my weight loss. I just kept thinking, how would I felt if I was still 240lbs as opposed to 220lbs? It was hard but I had my kids to focus on and we got through it. Now they are planning a trip to Miami in March and I really hope I can go and be at least 50lbs lighter.

For now I am staying away from the scale. I definitely feel so much bigger and I want to improve my diet and stop snacking. I am back to running but it is amazing how my muscles quickly became tense just after 4 days of no exercise. I also want to look into joining the gym, IJ has been feeling like he is so unfit and I think it will be good for both of us to hit the gym since the heat is really taking a toll on me.

In summary

Weight: 218.4lbs

Distance: 9.4 miles

#Active days: 4

3M- Week 3 (W)

Another week gone by and I actually don't have a vanity picture. This week was challenging because it really looks like I am not making any progress. I really had to remind myself that whatever I am doing is better than doing nothing. I went to Andrea's bridal shower and had a blast. The above picture is from the party and look how skinny Drea looks next to me, lol.

This week I was able to get active everyday. I also tried to keep up with the 30 day Ab and squat challenge. Earlier in the week I could barely walk, I had to lean on the sink in order to use the tiolet. It did get better at the end of the week. Even my abs were not burning as much. I am seeing a difference on my belly, I have gone from looking 5 months pregnant to 3 months, lol. I also saw some change on the scale too. I was really hoping to be losing bigger numbers but not so much. Today I weighed in at 217.6lbs. I was hoping to be at 200 by IJ's birthday but unless I detox or something, it is not going to happen. We will just see how far I get up until then.

In summary 

Weight: 217.6lbs

Distance: 18.8 miles

#Active days: 7